The year was 1979. I had fallen away from the Lord over the years and now the Lord came to retrieve a broken son. During the night, the Lord appeared to me and for hours He tenderly washed away my sin. The next morning, I began a process of confession and repentance. First to Jan, then to the family members I had wronged. I call that day the Day of Freedom. The freedom I felt in being forgiven and bringing to the light my sin was so freeing, I no longer worried about losing my marriage, family members, or what people thought of me. I was free!
Over the years since the Day of Freedom, I have learned a most important lesson about our spiritual life. No sin, lie, or half-truth will remain dormant forever. At some point, it will erupt spewing its content over our lives and the lives of those we love. Not until it is exposed to the light of God’s truth can we truly live in freedom.
A life of spiritual and emotional freedom is only possible when we choose to live in the light. Nothing we try to hide in the fear of exposure will have power over us when it is confessed, repented, and released to the Lord. Only in His merciful hands can the eruptive power of sin be disempowered.
“We are lying if we say we have fellowship with God but go on living in spiritual darkness; we are not practicing the truth. But if we are living in the light, as God is in the light, then we have fellowship with each other, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, cleanses us from all sin” (I John 1:6-7).
I was on a journey in the wilderness with Jesus a few years ago. He revealed to me hurts and unforgiveness I had towards my family. So I had spiritual surgery as Jesus was the surgeon. The freedom I felt afterwards was so amazing! The power of His love surrounded me! Thank you for your word today.
The Holy Spirit has come to me in my youth. I prayed long and hard about our family issues. The Holy Spirit washed away my fear and pain and peace came to me.
Recently, while praying for my Grand Daughter over a period of time asking how I can help her. Months into prayer a voice spoke to me in my mind. It said LOVE HER. I knew it was Gods voice telling me what my roll was in her life.
Wow. This is the exact season I am in now. ironically enough I was born in 1979. thru the actions of my brother who hurt my mom in an unimaginable way I have harbored unforgiveness towards them both; her I’ve cast judgement bc she didn’t have the ability to respond in the way I pridefully thought she should have; him for not learning & then continuing to go on & hurt another family member more severely. just 7 months ago I hated my mom, I didn’t want to ever, ever see her again. I spoke words no daughter, much less a born again believer should ever utter. I hurt her to the core. my heart grieves for the pain I’ve caused her by my words and my judgements. I am seeing now how much her pain has paralyzed her and caused her to become numb to the actions of my brother, and then on top of that my hurtful words and actions of blame and hate must have hurt her even more. it takes my breath away to know the pain I have caused her and I don’t know how to fix it. I can only allow God to deal with my own heart & pray for a complete change while I pray for her healing. she may never want to speak to me again and I couldn’t blame her at all, and I’ll have to trust God. I miss my mom more than I can say, and at 44 years old I cry daily for her. God tells me He’s working on it & I know He is. if you’ve read up until now please pray for a miracle restoration between me and my mom and the grace for total forgiveness in us both. thank you for your words, sir !
What follows is a Holy Spirit inspired poem I wrote that seems so appropriate for this post. I hope all who read it will share it and gain some spiritual strength from it
Blessings
Walk In The Light by Kevin Shearer
Walk in The Light and a truth will be shone.
Walk in The Light and you’ll not be alone.
Walk in The Light of pure love as it shines
and lies and deceit and deception resigns.
Walk in The Light from the morning ’till night.
Every moment throughout every day.
In a frenzy, be still and His Peace,it will fill
up your life in a holy, blessed way.
All lies and deceit will be fast in retreat,
disappearing far out of your sight.
When you act and commit,
it will be definite
having peace when you walk in The Light.
When you walk in His Light
and in Him you believe,
then your walk in The Light
will force darkness to leave.
The home of The Light is within. Not above.
Come walk in The Light of The One who is Love.